flexibility
Reading
Curious George is a favorite. In fact, he can do a killer monkey imitation!
Speech Camp Finale
For the last month Wil has been attending Speech Camp for three hours every weekday morning. It functions a lot like pre-school with an emphasize on speech and language development. The University of South Carolina runs the camp and staffs it with students earning a Master's in Speech/Language Pathology. Apart from $25 for materials there's no charge for the camp. So the USC students get their intern hours and the kids get some extended speech therapy over the summer.
And here he is signing "pop, pop, pop" (both hands palm out moving in a circular motion) as they sing a popcorn song. This was clearly his favorite of all the songs. 
He was so delighted with himself! And he was by far the most enthusiastic clapper!
After their performance the teachers began handing out completion certificates to each of the kids. But Wil, finding this part a bit too boring, decided he was done. So he got up and walked away.
He made a beeline for his Papa.
And then continued his applause. We were applauding too, grinning big for our boy, as this simple program reminded us of the important moments in life.
The Transition Begins
We have become very comfortable with Wil's therapy routine, his progress and abilities, and his obvious delays. When I look at Wil I see him in the context of our family which includes a little brother who is the same size and interested in many of the same things. Our context also includes our church family where Wil stays in the nursery since he is not yet walking. So in my eyes he just fits in. Now, I am aware that he is 12 to 18 months older than most of these kids but I just don't think about it often. He is who he is and I have always been okay with that.
However, today, reality kicked me in the knee's. Wil had his third of six transition meetings/evaluations. This morning we saw the psychiatrist. Wil was placed in the designated pre-school chair (after failing to follow instructions and climb in it himself) and sat attentively at the table before the evaluator. I sat in the corner behind him. The evaluation involved giving Wil one task after another to see how well he did. With each passing test the lump in my throat grew larger and the burning in my nostrils intensified. Anyone could see that he was not doing well but it was really emphasized by the phsychiatrists repeated comment of "oh he is just sooo cute," as if that was going to put a huge grin on my face and cause me to brush off what was becoming painfully clear. Wil is really delayed. After Wil's test I was asked many questions about his abilities at home. Most of my answers went something like this, "ummm, no he's not really doing much of that" or "well, occasionally he does x, y, or z but not consistently."
During this hour long session some of the grief that occasionally sneaks in was banging on my heart. I couldn't ignore it or busy myself with something else or pretend that Wil was exactly where he needs to be. I couldn't escape the 7 x 7 room where I was watching him do all the wrong things on every single test that was put before him. I also couldn't escape Wil's enthusiasm. Even though he put the circle in the square he clapped and yelled "aayyyyy" after he did it. Even though he couldn't pull the red block through the opening in the glass box he applauded himself for lifting the box up to retrieve the prize. Even though he couldn't put the peg in the hole he cheered when he got close. I couldn't escape the fact that Wil tries hard and he delights in the process. I couldn't escape the fact that as hard as our reality occasionally feels Wil continues to teach me simple yet profound lessons about what is most important and valuable in this short life we have been given. It is something I need to be reminded of often.
Special Needs
8. You don't ever buy a toy without thinking about it's therapuetic value.
9. Insurance companies won't touch your child with a ten foot pole.
10. But that's okay because you find there are good programs out there to help out.
11. You know which ER's to avoid.
12. You have your doctor's private number.
13. Under no circumstances do you cancel an appointment with a specialist.
14. You live with a mild physical and emotional weariness.
15. You could take up part time work as a PT, OT, SLP (okay, not really, but it feels like it).
16. You can't believe your pride when the smallest of milestone's are met.
17. You can't believe your amazing good fortune that God brought this child into your family.
In My Own Time
Timothy has also picked up all of Wil's sign language, which is great, though he is seemingly uninterested in trying out verbal communication. Unless it involves guttural squeals.
Timothy and Wil are great buddies. For now, Wil is being looked up to as big brother. He is being admired by Timothy. He is being mimicked throughout the day, it is really sweet. I know that one day that will stop. I know that one day Timothy will grow into his own skin, he will stop wanting to be like his big brother and Wil's place in the family may shift. One day it is going to be Wil trying to keep up with T, so for now I am going to enjoy the dynamic and the fact that I am getting some forced exercise with 28 lbs in each arm.
Serendipity
My body still feels crummy but my spirits are soaring. We are so proud of this little guy!
We're here, we're here
Tomorrow we have our first of many sessions with the school district as Wil's therapies will transition in March. Over the next several months they will put Wil through a battery of tests that will tell us exactly how delayed he is. On the one hand it is important because this is how he qualifies for services. On the other hand these things stink. We just don't look at Wil and think about all the things he is not doing. We are proud of what he is doing. I was beaming today when I watched him work so hard to swing (in slow motion) his leg over his little bike. He struggled with this seemingly simple task on his own with such concentration and no help. When he got on he just looked up at me and smiled, then honked the horn. :)
Get it Down: 31 for 21!
Milestones
And now it's time to celebrate the accomplishment!
